I don't actually have much to say. I just happened to stop by dA again to look for some nice wallpaper (since my other resources were running a bit thin), and I began noticing what a beautiful place this is. I'm contemplating actually hanging out around here regularly again, and I thought it might be nice to have a new journal entry up.

There's so many nice places on the internet. It's funny how I didn't really appreciate this before now. Well, we live and learn, don't we! Haha, I don't think anything I write here is going to make sense. Well, I suppose I could actually write something journaly. How about it?

I'm in college now, studying things I'm passionate about, but now that I'm here I'm realizing that there are things I want to do with my life that I can't study here. Until now, all my thoughts have been towards securing financial stability through something that interests me; I didn't consider a potential career unless it was very strong on both points. After much uncertainty and anxiety in high school, I picked East Asian Studies as a focus, knowing that I have at least some passion for Japanese, and that even if a future in Japan wouldn't be the most financially secure, East Asian Studies also covers China, the new world superpower that you can snag so many federal grants for being involved with. After arriving at college, I decided to double that up with Linguistics, which is fascinating in itself, but also might be in for some interesting changes in the near future. I have no idea what I could do with these as a career, but they're pretty open-ended job-wise, so I'm not too worried about them financially.

The thing is, it was only after arriving here that I realized I really, really want to do something creative with my life. Throughout the years, I've just let my fears of either not earning enough money to support myself or not having any talent discourage me from even trying to do anything creative beyond a quiet hobby, but now I realize that such thoughts are silly and unproductive. I don't know if I really will do something creative as my main career, or as any career, but I owe it to myself to at least develop my skills enough that I can embrace it as my passion. The only reason I wish I'd realized this sooner is that my school doesn't have anything close to a fine arts or creative writing program, so I can't do any formal studying or get credit for trying it out. All in all, that isn't terrible, though. I'll just have to find another way to learn, and leave my options open for the future.